Dramarama.

I'm not going to lie. This weekend had it's rough moments.

one. In all of the drama surrounding this divorce, I have never painted (or intentionally, anyway) AJ in a negative light. I've never made it seem like this divorce would mean freedom from AJ or to be "rid" of him. If anything, the finalization of our divorce has just meant that I could finally put that chapter of my life behind me and move on. I've never regretted anything about my relationship with AJ or the divorce, because I know that I've learned from it and it's helped make me into who I am today. I know that had I not gone through all of that, I wouldn't have the people in my life that I do now, and I wouldn't have the same values and perspectives that I do now. That being said, on Friday night, I got a smack in the face, if you will, when I read some pretty unsettling comments about AJ being finally free and that it was celebration day. Had these comments come from people who don't know me, I would've taken them with the meaning that AJ was finally free to move on from this. However, being from people that I thought were my friends, people that I knew long before AJ, people that AJ wouldn't have even met had it not been for me, I took it personally. Seriously - my sorority sister? - that was a pretty hard blow. I mean, some of the people that chose AJ's "side" are classless and I expected it from them, but really? I chose to take the high road on FB on Friday and didn't say anything negative towards AJ (or wasn't meant to be, at least), but if anything, I should know by now - you find out who your true friends are when it comes to the parts of your life that aren't all rainbows and butterflies.

two. Two of our couple friends have decided to split up for good. Josh called me yesterday to tell me that one of his buddies' wife had moved out while he was at work. And that apparently she told her husband that I told her he was cheating on her. Huh? I'm speechless here. 1. I had heard rumors that he was cheating on her, but I don't know enough about the situation to even begin to talk about that one! 2. I am not close to either one of them, so it was definitely not my place to even think about telling her about rumors I had heard. I do not get involved in other people's relationships, even close friends of mine. I certainly wasn't involved in hers! She deleted her FB and dropped off the face of the earth. I mean, the whole thing is comical really, because it's so far fetched, but the last thing I want is her spreading rumors that I am that kind of person. I've done a pretty good job of staying out of drama - partially because I don't let any of these people "in." I keep my distance and don't get involved if I don't have to.

three. Josh has been working a lot to make up for our almost two week vacation, which means that even when he is off, he's pretty exhausted. I miss him even though he's just in the next room napping!!

four. My psychotic EX-MIL has decided to go on her crazy texting spree again. Last time she called me an adulterer. This time she told me no one would ever love me. Where does this stuff come from?! I mean, honestly... what goes through a person's head that they would think that and then tell someone?! Last time, I ignored her. This time, I responded. What I said to her wasn't anything I wouldn't say in front of my pastor/parents/etc. She had the audacity to write back that I am an immature child and that I don't deserve to be a [insert her last name]. I ended the conversation with, "You and I agree on something. I was immature when I got married, and I am now happily a [insert my maiden name]. Please leave me alone." Good grief - it has been a year and a half! (I wanted to say some very nasty things about her and her family, but I know that mud-slinging is not the way to go here, so I refrained.)

But, God has been good and reminded me that even though a thunderstorm may come through, the sun always comes out.

one. My pastor came up to me at church yesterday and gave me some encouraging words. He's someone who knows both AJ and I (he was my Bible teacher in 7th grade :-)). I never specifically told him when my divorce was, but he knew anyway (my guess is thanks to FB). I've had some suspicions as to how the Assemblies of God view divorce and remarriage, so frankly, I've been afraid to bring up the subject with him. The things he said didn't give me any resolution on the topic, but offered some reassurance that he, as a person, is supportive of me.

two. I am so so so very thankful for my true friends. I know I've said it before, but I mean it from the bottom of my heart and don't know what I'd do without them. (I really wanted to post pictures, but will refrain - frankly, so I don't embarrass myself and/or them!)